I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.
Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I could be doing this for the wrong reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to share wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have enable you to see inside a course in miracles. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of something that I'd stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I'd in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.
